but see it seems as if Jesus isn't so much feeling the same way.
and as much as i want to scream and throw things and yell at him and say "but he's my baby! i promised him! why not! i want to go!"
i can't. he's teaching me patience [it's no fun] and he's teaching me to find peace in His plans and His will.
not for the faint of heart, y'all.
so right now, i don't know when i will be returning to my "heart land"
maybe this year, maybe not.
but in the meantime i am finding peace in "no" and anxiously awaiting for the "yes" to arrive.
"i've learned i can't change the world, Jesus will do that. i can however, change the world for one. and that's enough" [katie davis]