finding peace

as most who have been reading my blog for any amount know, uganda is my heart. orphans are my heart. and i'm literally dying to go back. 

but see it seems as if Jesus isn't so much feeling the same way. 

and as much as i want to scream and throw things and yell at him and say "but he's my baby! i promised him! why not! i want to go!" 

i can't. he's teaching me patience [it's no fun] and he's teaching me to find peace in His plans and His will. 

not for the faint of heart, y'all. 

so right now, i don't know when i will be returning to my "heart land" 

maybe this year, maybe not. 

but in the meantime i am finding peace in "no" and anxiously awaiting for the "yes" to arrive. 

"i've learned i can't change the world, Jesus will do that. i can however, change the world for one. and that's enough" [katie davis]

happy sunday!